My heart is still broken knowing you are gone. I think about you everyday. Our lives were so intertwined from childhood, employment, mums and most importantly friends, that I think I will forever see you in the world around me. There is so much I wish I could tell you, and so much more I wish I was brave enough to have told you in those last few hard days - I find solace in knowing you knew me, as I knew you, and words were not necessary. You made me stronger, more confident and less alone every time we spoke, I have to keep your advise to me in my head and my heart - especially on the hard days. Your drive and ambition never ceased to amaze me, you gave your whole self to every project, relationship and opportunity, you were such an inspiration and I'm beyond proud of what you did in your short years. "Even though you didn't make it to the end of my story, I will always have the corner folded down on your page.. because it was one of my favorite's" - anonymous I love you Nic

E hoa, I still can't believe you're gone. You're so alive in my memories. Every time I put on a Callaghan tee I think of you (right now, pretty much every day - my go-to athleisure! You did such a great job with the rebranding.). Your time at Callaghan was such a small part of your life, but I'm so glad I got to meet you and work with you. And I'm glad I told you how great you were at your job. Not only a great technical leader, but an excellent people leader who really cared about your team. You were an absolute force, and a woman who exemplified 'grace under fire'. We were all so lucky to work with you - you were a joy and inspiration for so many, and from attending your memorial it's clear to see just how massive your impact was. I'm so grateful I was able to join with all those who loved and knew you, celebrating your life. Rest easy, wāhine toa. And I extend so much love and comfort to your whānau. We were all so lucky to know you, even for such a short time. Aroha nui xxx

Nic, I still haven’t wrapped my head around the news that you’re no longer with us. In our short time at Callaghan Innovation you made me feel so seen, safe and protected. I will never forget your kindness and empathy. I will treasure the time we had and the lessons I learnt from you and the lovely memories of your laugh and infectious smile. I am keeping your loved ones so close to my heart, both in this time and forever. Rest easy you amazing woman, you are so loved xx

Dear Nic, The very first time I met you was a job interview on a teams call. I was greeted with a beaming smile and a big hello - and from then on every time I saw you that's the greeting I received. You never know what connections you are going to make when you start a new job. Ours was one I valued and will never forget. We started as colleagues, you became my manager, and along the way you became an amazing friend. I'm mourning the loss of my "twin brain" - it always made us laugh at how we were always on the same page and thinking the same way. I loved and admired your optimism, energy, passion, and courage in every aspect of your life. Since leaving Callaghan Innovation I loved our coffee and scone catch ups, sharing our stories and plans for the future, and was looking forward to you coming to work for me this time! I can't believe someone with so much life has been taken from us. I'll think of you every time I visit our favourite local cafe. I'll never forget you, and while it hurts, I'm grateful I had the privilege of knowing you for the time I did. Your family, Craig, and the boys did you proud at your farewell. My heart goes out to them and I know the impact you had on their lives. Your spirit will continue on in them. I'm so sad I didn't get to say goodbye in person before you left us. The last time we saw each other you said "hello my friend, it's so good to see you". This week I have to say "good by my friend, I'm never going to forget you." Rest in peace Nicola. Chris

Nic I cannot believe you are gone. You were so wise, so funny and so full of laughter and life. I will miss your advice and calm counsel. I hope you are at peace now,

Dearest family of Nicola, My heart is with you. I have a message from Nicola to “her boys”. She says you will know who that is 😉 Her message is this: https://on.soundcloud.com/QHXYxXKwUto9b6y79 She’s asked that you listen all together when you’re ready. Prepare a quiet room or space where you all feel safe and can fully listen: every word, every note, every spec of silence. Sound must be good (not played from a phone but like a nice speaker). I know this message may seem confusing or unexpected to receive. You’re welcome to reach out to me if you like. I am here. I will upload a pic from today, where we played in the waves near Mount maunganui just before 1pm. With/in/surrounded by her love and from my heart to yours, Sarah

Sweet Nicki, Thank you for all the years we had together. Blessed to have been part of your life since school days and shared countless life events together. Every year we would reminisce about our sweet 16th party as our birthdays were 1 week apart. I have been looking back on all our messages and pictures over the last week and can't believe you are gone. Thank you for your love and time you always had for me. I wish we all had more time with you, but know it would never be enough. Your light and your smile will always be remembered. Your sons did you so proud today. May you rest in peace my beautiful friend. xx

Miss Nic - what a special friend and human being you are. Always the highest achiever, biggest smile, huge energy and passion. You were hugely loved and you are hugely missed. All my support to the Fenwick family and Caleb. Jenna W xxxx

Nic, we connected instantly and you have left such an amazing impression of what a strong, confident, talented and above all, loving, woman looks like. Too soon Nic, but you lived your life to the fullest and threw yourself into everything! My love to Craig, Caleb, Boston, Harrison and all your loved ones. Thank you for making such an impact in my life and being there for me. xx

I am really proud to say that I was Nic Fenwick’s best ever, most-valued and respected work friend. I have no hesitation in claiming this position because I was lucky enough to have 1:1 meetings every week with her. The warmth of those meetings, the trust and respect she showed for my thoughts, the deep support and care she had for what was going on in my life outside work, and the many things that we laughed about are all the evidence I need. “I really look forward to these chats” has only ever been said to me in such an inspirational, mood-elevating way by one person I have worked with, so considering that Nic was the “boss” I worked with for the shortest time, it says a lot about her. Nic was one of the most buoyant, positive people I’ve ever met. She wouldn't call herself a writer, but she had a knack for knowing exactly what tone and emotion a piece of writing or communication needed. I guess because she instinctively brought the same warmth, care and kindness from her personal interactions and merged it with a delight in doing a thing well and doing it right. Nic and I joked about getting superpowers from the iron in the treatment she was having; for me the real superpower was the one she already had. It made our 1:1s consistently go over time, and I saw it in use time and again with everyone I saw her interact with — a generosity with her attention, care, trust, support, wit, energy and compassion. It feels like I knew you for a lot longer than three years, Nic. You were a big plus in my life. So yes I’m completely confident that I was Nic’s best-ever, most-valued, respected, trusted friend. And I know I’m not the only one because Nic made quite a few of us feel that way. Thank you Nic.

Nic - we knew each other in passing late night craziness - you were and are a true guru! I cannot express how saddened I’ve been to learn of your passing. Sad face, sadder face. Big hugs and love to your family and everyone that had the opportunity to experience your passion and drive! You’ll always be missed. 💚💚

Nic, I know you are now at peace but your soul will be forever missed. You were kind, always there for a hug, would always be so supportive of my journey, and were one of the true genuine souls that I know in my life. Life isn't about things, it's the magic in the moments from souls who cross your path, it's the conversations that make you believe in kindness and compassion, it's about the hugs I wish I'd held for a bit longer, it's about surrounding yourself with souls who feel like sunshine, you were all of those things for me, I will miss you, all of you xxx

*Bordeaux!!!

Nic, you were such an amazing colleague and friend - clever, ambitious, and talented, with an abundance of warmth and kindness. I’ll be dialling in from London on Sunday night with the best Beaujolais red, toasting to our trip there and all our memories - this time, with a corkscrew vs. fork! You’ll be deeply deeply missed by so many, but remembered forever. Xxxx

I'm sorry I can't be there..but will be in spirit..Will cherish our childhood. Fly high my cuz.

Nikki, you were one of the good ones. Kind heart, big smile and always ready for a chat and an adventure. I will forever treasure our Europe adventures. To Craig, your boys and family, my deepest sympathies. Sending all my love and wrapping you all in the biggest hugs. RIP Nikki. You will never be far from my thoughts and I will remember our friendship forever xx

Nic - you were the most exceptional human being, and I'll miss you so, so much. I was so honoured when you said you thought of me not as my boss but as a friend. I've never had a boss like you, Nic - you inspired me with your belief in my abilities, and you always listened to my advice. Sending my love and deepest sympathies to your husband, boys, and family, whom you always spoke so fondly of. Rest in peace, Nic - I will always remember and cherish our time together. Your friend, Mike.